How do you find pion in life?

your last sentence sheds light on your predicament--your overbearing mother. It may sound mean to say that, but i was the same way when i was twenty one and i, too, had an overbearing mother. I remedied the situation by moving far away from her negative influence. I then started doing anything i wanted and began to feel much better, about myself and my life. I'd like to add you should seek counseling, but i don't mean that in a negative, put-down way.A counselor can help you understand why you feel the way you do and can help you overcome these feelings, so it that light, talk to a counselor--and good luck.