I need help. I feel so lost now...?

my parents are split and have been fighting for custody for many years. ive moved 6 times since i was 7. i have lost all my friends and the girl i loved. ive been in cali for the past 3 years and have no good friends. I only hang out with girls and i hate it. But i am scared to meet new people since i dont know what they think of me. People think im gay which makes me angry since they havent met me. at home with my dad (my mom lives in another state) I hate it also. I dont feel accepted and i always have pressure on me to be a role model for my siblings, and i hate it. My step mom treats her son w/ more respect. I feel lost. My dad nvr listens to my problems and when he does he says its just a phase. I miss my mom and want to go back, but when i mentioned it everyone fell apart here. So i stayed. and now every night i lay awake. I mostly wake up during the night. And every week i either cry or feel like crying when im in bed. I get very angry fast and cant stand pressure. i want someone to hold and to trust. i want a person to listen to me. I dont want help from a stranger either.