Help me inlove straggle?

! I have this once a week sensual and kiss. But he never show that he cares and never dates me for sure when...I'm inlove with him but i feel that he doesn;t show the same or might he is shy..He always talk nice to me,honors me front of everyone,He admires me..but does he loves me...I feel soemthing strange...he sometimes....avoids kissing..and then we kiss when i push hard....do i have a conection with him or just ?